Spark

Feeling a bit inspired today, hence the workstarter post.

I can't really put my finger on it.. Maybe it is because of the unexpected one-day work break? Or the satisfaction I got after accomplishing some "atypical errands" that I would not be able to pull off on a regular day without taking time off from work? I dunno..

Or maybe it's that rare shot of caffeine I got a while ago from the milk tea we ordered for merienda. :P Oh damn, I'm gonna have reflux later, aren't I?.. 0_0

To be honest, things have been pretty dull as of late. Everyone seems to have settled into the daily grind with a grudging acceptance that Covid conditions at the hospital are not going to change anytime soon, and people are just trying to make the most of things and attempting to get on with their lives and daily duties.. It is just saddening when I think of all the training programs that were forced to adapt or outright be put on hold because of the pandemic. All of a sudden we are not training specialists enymore, but teaching a new generation how to manage a disease that the entire world is just learning to deal with.. Academic growth (apart from Covid knowledge) seems to have slowed to a crawl. In the Sleep Medicine program I presently find myself in, I find that I am sorely lagging behind  in terms of census requirements.. An extension is all but inevitable, but I hope that the additional months will still have a salary to go with it..

So much uncertainty about the future.. It can get really depressing at times...

I have been thinking about the future lately, and how my plans have taken a different shape with all that has been happening.. It is disheartening to think that we are now really living in the End-times, with all these disasters happening all across the globe, with no signs of letting up.. Seeing this forced us to reevaluate what we will be doing in the next few years.. Seeing how the guys are struggling with putting their kids to school under the current conditions makes us think twice about bringing another life into the world.. Its a sad reality, but I guess we just have to accept it... Oh, this post seems to have taken a more somber tone compared to when I started..

Despite that, I still named this post "Spark" since this is the most positive I have felt in the past couple of weeks.. Could it be a sign that things may finally get a bit better? Only time will tell, but for now, I gotta study and do some paperwork. Got a report in exactly a week, and I haven't really done jack squat. :P

Oh, I guess my current musical obsessions may have something to do with it, but that's a story for another post. ;)

Resurfacing

Wow! I can't believe I was so inactive for such a long time! It kinda felt like ! was spending the past 3 months underwater, hence the picture. Hehehe:P

Life has become a whirlpool of sorts lately, and I think I'm doing myself a favor by just going with the flow. I seem to have learned that a lot of good things can happen if you just float along and let the tide carry you where it will. I'm quite pleased to say that a lot of things have been happening lately, and thankfully most of them are on the positive side (finally!)

In what seemed to be a very unlikely turn of events, I found myself being given yet another chance by the Big Guy upstairs to make something out of my life (Thanks God!) and am now a medical resident yet again, but this time in an institution which I never imagined myself working in, doing stuff I never thought I would get to do while still in training. It is not a private institution like Cardinal, nor is it a teaching hospital like somewhere else. I really took myself out of my comfort zone, working in an unfamiliar hospital with an unfamiliar system, forgoing the comforts of living near where I work and enduring the commute every day whether I be Pre, Duty, or From,, but quite frankly I'm surprised that I seem to be loving it more than what I've already experienced before.. ;) I'm able to study more, retain more, accomplish more, and help a far greater number of people than I ever thought would be possible at this point in my life.

Other stuff has been going on as well, most prominent is my exposure and eventual addiction to a certain genre of music which culminated in my emergence as a loyal SONE, but that discussion is reserved for a future post. ;P

At last I think I'm finally getting somewhere with my life. I'm sick of wandering around, trying different things and taking a step back when something doesn't seem to suit my fancy. I think I may have found a home here, and this is where I intend to stay (hopefully for the next three years). 

Um.. ok.. I guess that's all for now.. Strange.. I expected to be able to churn out a novel this time around.. :P