I should be doing something else right now...

.. but I don't want to just yet..

It's Sunday morning and I'm the ERO for the day. Luckily I'm not obligated to be at the hospital really early, so I'll take this time to prepare a report I have to present on Monday..

It's been a really tiring year so far.. Reportings and ER duties are pretty much a fact of life.. and I'm not really fond of reports, especially now..

I'm also really confused right now.. my personal life is all in shambles as well, with no sense of certainty or security..

I just wish things would be better this time around.. is that too much to ask?..

Traffic Enforcer

Another long overdue post..

Have you ever noticed that whenever you pass through a place with cars at a standstill but is not normally known to have traffic, there is usually a traffic enforcer right smack in the middle of it?

Matbe it's due to bad judgement on the part of the enforcer, heck it's OFTEN due to bad judgement!

But then again, you have to take a look at the job title...

"TRAFFIC ENFORCER"

I guess they're just doing their jobs..

Enforcing the traffic. :P

Burst of Inspiration

Sometimes I surprise even myself..

Didn't go to the hospital today.. Was feeling a little under the weather and needed to take a break from it al..

Though this post will not be the great filler that I had long wanted to write, this will have to do for the meantime.

Things have surprisingly not been going well back at the good old hospital.. While it is true that we have shaken one form of "tyranny" from the seniors long gone, we seem to have encountered a strange new dynamic wherein you have favoritism taken to the extreme. Couple that with relatively poor leadership, and you have yet another winning combination which leads me to wonder what the hell are gonna do the following year, seeiug as the previous batches haven't exactly been "good role models" or shining examples of leadership and seniority that we could try to emulate.. but I guess these are problems that we'll just have to deal with another time..

Ok, so i wasn't able to post the last time..

So now i'm writing a new otne with the hope that I might not forget it the second time around.. I'll still be posting the other one though.

Sneak Attack

Having a little bit of time to myself this morning, I decided to jot down this little missive (thanks to the power of the iPad :P). Things have been really crazy as of late, with various stuff spiralling out of control, but at the same time other aspects have begun to stabilize. It still a confusing whirlwind of comings and goings but we manage to pull through.

A question was put forth before me in the form of a song title a few weeks ago.. Sexy, free, and single? Well, yeah, i guess so.. :P

I tried..

I really need to start writing again..

Lately everything in my life has been such a blur.. I don't know what to make of things anymore..

And now something really big just came up, and I feel that my life is about to spiral out of control..

Nothing makes sense anymore.. I hate to sound so melodramatic, but I presently feel that I no longer have anything to live for..

Regrets abound,and there's nothing I can really do about it..

I'm actually writing this as a warmup to a much bigger thing, the most difficult letter I will probably ever have to write in my entire life..

Exhaustion

Man, I'm tired..

I know I should be out there fighting the good fight and all that crap, but I'm just so tired already.. I feel so worn down..

Second year is really no joke.. It's kinda like a double whammy.. You're already dead tired from working at the ER every duty, but you're also expected to be at your very best during your multiple lectures and conferences..

To top it all off, we didn't even get a Christmas break last year..

This sucks... :(

I really wish I had a whole lot more time to myself, especially do to what I want, like blogging for instance..