Alone in the Dark

I'm literally sitting in the dark.. Assisted a pair of GI procedures which automatically ate up half my day.. Seeing as how futile it would be to try and make rounds before assuming my duty post (which unfortunately starts at 12nn), I decided to just f*** that and had my lunch. Now with only a few minutes to spare, i thought it would be nice to have some "alone time" for a change...

Come to think of it, I never really allotted time to myself lately, except for that one Saturday when I was really fed up and decided to go out and watch Pacific Rim (which was totally awesome btw, you should go watch it).

Life getting tiring at a totally different level now.. I hardly ever sleep during duties, and I'm unable to get any stuff done when i get home. Its kinda sad because sometimes I used to be most productive when i'm at home..

I really miss someone, the question is, who should i be missing?.. Am I missing person #1 just because? Or am i missing person.#2 because I feel that she needs to be missed?.. Indeed, these are very confusing times...

Times up, I better head to my post.. Later then...

First Time Ever

It's a really weird feeling, although a pleasant one at that..

I never thought it would be possible, especially not this early,

but I think I've fallen for someone..

This isn't the typical "wow I like this girl, she's nice" benign kind of thing that usually happens to me..

This one is different..

When I saw her, I KNEW that I had to get to know her..

Its inexplicable..

And when I did summon up the courage to approach her, something instantaneously clicked..

We hit it off right away..

I never really felt this way before, even in previous relationships..

That's why I never thought things like this could happen in real life, because it seems like a plot from a cheezy romantic movie or something..

We'll just have to see what happens next..

But for now, its safe to say that I have found a reason to be happy whenever I go on duty for a change.. :D

Moving Along

It has really bern some time since the last entry so I guess its time for an actual sedate addition to keep the spirit of the blog alive.

There have been tremendous upheavals going on in my life these past couple of months, most of which I do not care to elaborate any further as it might not be fair to other parties concerned. However, I'll go as as to say that I'm reluctantly starting a new chapter in my life, a chapter I never thought I would be living.. Its sad that you get used to a certain situation for so long that when something totally unexpected happens, it pulls the rug from under you and you fall really hard. These types of falls are the most difficult ones to recover from, as though you've bern blindsided by life itself and are in no position to brace yourself for the fall since you never really expected it within that short span of time..

I just realized that I'm going around in circles here.. What i really mean to get across here is that yes i have fallen, but now I'm ready to get back up and face the day once again, hopefully which a much better outcome later on. In fact, i think there's something on the horizon right now.. Let's just see what happens..

I should be doing something else right now...

.. but I don't want to just yet..

It's Sunday morning and I'm the ERO for the day. Luckily I'm not obligated to be at the hospital really early, so I'll take this time to prepare a report I have to present on Monday..

It's been a really tiring year so far.. Reportings and ER duties are pretty much a fact of life.. and I'm not really fond of reports, especially now..

I'm also really confused right now.. my personal life is all in shambles as well, with no sense of certainty or security..

I just wish things would be better this time around.. is that too much to ask?..

Traffic Enforcer

Another long overdue post..

Have you ever noticed that whenever you pass through a place with cars at a standstill but is not normally known to have traffic, there is usually a traffic enforcer right smack in the middle of it?

Matbe it's due to bad judgement on the part of the enforcer, heck it's OFTEN due to bad judgement!

But then again, you have to take a look at the job title...

"TRAFFIC ENFORCER"

I guess they're just doing their jobs..

Enforcing the traffic. :P

Burst of Inspiration

Sometimes I surprise even myself..

Didn't go to the hospital today.. Was feeling a little under the weather and needed to take a break from it al..

Though this post will not be the great filler that I had long wanted to write, this will have to do for the meantime.

Things have surprisingly not been going well back at the good old hospital.. While it is true that we have shaken one form of "tyranny" from the seniors long gone, we seem to have encountered a strange new dynamic wherein you have favoritism taken to the extreme. Couple that with relatively poor leadership, and you have yet another winning combination which leads me to wonder what the hell are gonna do the following year, seeiug as the previous batches haven't exactly been "good role models" or shining examples of leadership and seniority that we could try to emulate.. but I guess these are problems that we'll just have to deal with another time..

Ok, so i wasn't able to post the last time..

So now i'm writing a new otne with the hope that I might not forget it the second time around.. I'll still be posting the other one though.