but it's not.. :P
It's actually a Tuesday, June 12,2012, and today is the Philippine independence day.
Proudly Pinoy?
Having some rare time off, I now sit my ass in front of the computer to once again attempt to piece together all that has transpired in the past few months..
Or I may just cut things short and talking about what's happening in the here and now..
I'm (finally) in the middle of my 6th month of IM residency. Anything hereon in is going to be unfamiliar territory for me, as I have finally breached the half year mark and am on my merry way towards second year (at last!). :P
It seems as though I've found someplace where I could work contentedly. I'm reluctant to use the term "fit in" because honestly, I feel that I sometimes stick out like a sore thumb among the people I work with.. I won't elaborate further on this statement, so we will now move on.. :P
People who have known me from before and have seen me lately wonder why I look so haggard, whereas in the past I have allegedly always seemed so fresh and cheery (really?). I guess I have only one response to that.. Why don't you try going on 24-hour duty as an IM resident for half a year or so and let's see how good that makes you feel??
My present state of mental health is at question too, as I find my self more and more irritated at the people around me. It's not that I don't like the work, it's just that I' not too fond of it either. :P Being a resident is never fun and games. It gets interesting at times, but it becomes more of a burden as the work begins to pile up.. and sometimes no matter ow hard you try, or how dedicated you try to present yourself, or how often you get up early, it gets discouraging when the people around you don't do the same.. :(
How I wish I could make a retrospective entry which does not qualify for the "bad trip" tag..
Although I have a few reasons to smile as well..
- went out with sweet inspiration today. It was just a short date. A quick lunch and some much needed talk time, but it was quality time well-spent.:D
- I'm finally able to sit and blog at length for the first time in months! Even now, I can feel the stress sapping away and draining outwards into the wasteland of the internet.. :P
- I'm motivated to study again! Not just because I need to, but because I WANT to. There's a really big difference between the two, you know. ;)
- I know it was mentioned earlier, but I'M FINALLY NEARING SECOND YEAR!! One of my chief resident's favorite encouraging statements is that "I'n a few months, you'll be having pre-residents under you!". That thought in itself evokes a warm glow and a sense of achievement, something I have not felt in a long time.. I hope and pray that everything will go well..
That's all for now. Time to study in earnest (and to keep my downloads in check :P) See you in the next episode! :P
