Thursday, August 12, 2004

Thoughts while in the LRU..

This is just great.. Im sitting here in the most comfortable room in school with all the time and bandwidth that i could want and my mind pulls a blank. Just when i thought i could post something worthwhile. Oh well...

Life's been pretty weird these past few days. Its as if we never had the long weekend to rest after the prelims. I still wake up each morning feeling like a I've been sleeping under a ton of bricks. Well, i guess that rules out the initiations for this semester...

Istill can't make up my damn mind whether I want to join a frat or not. Sure, there is always the argument na "Its just less than a 2 weeks of hardship to endure, with a lifetime of benefits to enjoy. The question is, are those 10 days of hardship (and also probably escalating conflict with my folks) gonna be worth it? I,m having a hard time with my studies right now as it is. To dig myself in deeper... sigh...

But then again, most of the brods are my friends, and there's this part of me that wants to prove something.. that I can do it against all odds, that i can accomplish something that few others have done. Besides, its a fun frat. I like the people there. Ok yung samahan and everything. I really envy the camaraderie that they enjoy.. And lets not forget the freebies and the cool stuff that shows the world that "im one of them". (Hm.. parang yung commercial ng Gentext :P)

Since the summer, I've always felt a compulsion to go back and try again. Pero now that I'm at the edge, biglang nawala yung desire. Its as if i suddenly had a realization and my entire mindset just turned around..

I guess these are things that I'll have to consider at another time. For now, its back to the books!

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