Duty Post

It's 8:19 PM, and I'm STARVING... :(

On duty again at the hospital. I'm sitting here typing away since I have a bit of downtime in the midst of making a research presentation from scratch to be presented in 2 days' time.. Sometimes the ridiculousness of the situations I often find myself in just boggles the mind.

I had the pleasure of enjoying a Sunday off yesterday. It was a day well-spent with the family. Just a simple lunch out at someplace different, with a bit of retail therapy at the end of the day.

After mass, we had a chat with one of the community elders who knew me and my folks since I was a small kid. She was an Obstetrician by training, but never really got to practice her profession since her husband was well-off enough for her to just be a woman of the house (well, at least, that's as far as I remember..) She's still surprisingly sharp for and aged auntie though. :P

After the usual exchange of pleasantries that go with not having seen someone for quite some time, she shifted to that oh-so-familiar topic that single people of my age dread.. Surprisingly, she wasn't really pushing me to go out with anyone or set me up with this or that girl, In fact, she told me to just hold off for the meantime, since everything would just flow naturally given the facts that I'm a guy, and that I'm a physician as well. She said that I should just bide my time and not be in any rush to get married anytime soon. That conversation was a welcome respite as compared to all those conversations with all those other well-meaning mothers who just can't seem to keep away from the role of playing matchmaker. :P

This got me thinking though.. I definitely am not getting any younger. The only meaningful relationship I once had which lasted around 9 years is in shambles, and it kind of left me hesitant to try again.. Sure, there was this one girl, but that didn't really work out that well now, did it?

I don't know if I now find myself in a state of relationship phobia, My buddies are always excited to introduce all these girls to me (partly because they want to live vicariously through me since they're all married already), but I tend to brush off the opportunities because "it doesn't feel right".. :(